Not much too say today except that Allistaire’s ANC moved for the first time up from zero. Today it was 30. Who can know what it’ll do – the fellow actually said it could take as long as a month to get to 200. I had no idea that was even possible. I’m just so thankful we have motion!
Please also pray for Solveig. I was hoping/planning to head to Bozeman in the next few days for a visit with her but she has a fever today and there’s no way I can intentionally expose myself to that sort of sickness and then possibly pass it on to Allistaire. Pray that no one else in Sten’s family gets sick either.
We are constantly reminded that we cannot know what the future holds. As I wiped the counter in Allistaire’s room tonight I thought, hmmm, Allistaire will likely have to tell any future love that she might not be able to have kids because she had cancer when she’s little. She may have a heavy burden to carry that way. Why this came to mind while wiping the counter I have no idea. But there’s no use expending fear or worry over it. Today we have Allistaire and so so much more. It is so hard to live with all your ultimate hopes resting in some future time and place and be fully present to the moment as well. Whatever comes, I pray God will have brought about a permanent change in me. I hope I truly become a different sort of person, one who can dwell fully in the present and relish it while resting my long term hopes and needs in God. Again and again in little ways that ultimately accumulate and amount to big ways, the Lord is offering me to live a life in which I rest the weighty things of this life in His hands and in so doing am freed up to more fully engage in and labor in the moment.
Conglomeration of Joy 
Ah! I’ve found your blog. I’m thankful to read it, to know how to pray. And we will pray, Jai, for your beautiful girls and you and Sten.
Thanks for your caring prayers Rebecca!
“I pray God will have brought about a permanent change in me. I hope I truly become a different sort of person, one who can dwell fully in the present and relish it while resting my long term hopes and needs in God. Again and again in little ways that ultimately accumulate and amount to big ways, the Lord is offering me to live a life in which I rest the weighty things of this life in His hands and in so doing am freed up to more fully engage in and labor in the moment.”
So so so so awesome!
I love that you’re not wasting Allistaire’s cancer in your life… God will richly bless your humble efforts… not sure how, but He promises to lift the lowly.
You are on our hearts CONSTANTLY throughout the day. We will keep praying, Jai, and praying especially for strength for all of you in this. What a privilege it is for our family to come before the throne of grace on your behalf. We have grown to love Allistaire so much from afar as we see her beautiful smiling face. You are such a trophy of God’s grace and it is so precious to see you draw so near to Him in the midst of this very trying time. Love sent your way from the Montoyas!
I am so happy that things are going up. Jai I thought you would get a laugh out of this funny story.We could not find Conner’s PJ we looked all over then for some reason Mark looked in the potty and there they were/ I remebered that I heard the lid drop and Conner and I went in and we saw Alison but we did not think about that she could have put something in it. Thank goodness she did not flush. I took them out and Conner’s says to me I guess that you need to keep the door shut mom. I said thanks so much for the reminder Conner. I guess kids are the ones that keep us in line. Just thought you would enjoy that story. By the way did you get the hats. I hope things keep going the right way. Keep the HOPE going.
Thanks for sharing the fun story Michelle. We can all use all the laughs we can get! Thank you too for the hats – they arrived yesterday. Allistaire seems to especially love the one with the little brim. She tried it on several times and enthusiastically wanted “Doggie” to wear it as well. Can you remind me who made the hats?
Hi Jai. I amso happy to hear that Allistaire’s ANC is on the upward tend. I pray that it continues upward but if it trends down a bit don’t be alarmed — It is definately a long journey. If you need anything, please let me know – my email is below and I will try to help. I hope and pray Allistaire is able to get out of the hospital very soon. Keep faith – I’m thinking and praying for Allistaire and your family.
P.S. Taylor is home and is doing good. She still has LOTS of recovery but gets a little stronger every day.
Brenda Bethards (Taylor’s Mom)
Brenda – it is an extra special joy to hear from you and to be connected to you and Taylor again if even through the internet 🙂 I’m so glad to hear that Taylor continues regaining her strength! Thank you for your empathetic prayers! They mean so much!