Not much too say today except that Allistaire’s ANC moved for the first time up from zero. Today it was 30. Who can know what it’ll do – the fellow actually said it could take as long as a month to get to 200. I had no idea that was even possible. I’m just so thankful we have motion!
Please also pray for Solveig. I was hoping/planning to head to Bozeman in the next few days for a visit with her but she has a fever today and there’s no way I can intentionally expose myself to that sort of sickness and then possibly pass it on to Allistaire. Pray that no one else in Sten’s family gets sick either.
We are constantly reminded that we cannot know what the future holds. As I wiped the counter in Allistaire’s room tonight I thought, hmmm, Allistaire will likely have to tell any future love that she might not be able to have kids because she had cancer when she’s little. She may have a heavy burden to carry that way. Why this came to mind while wiping the counter I have no idea. But there’s no use expending fear or worry over it. Today we have Allistaire and so so much more. It is so hard to live with all your ultimate hopes resting in some future time and place and be fully present to the moment as well. Whatever comes, I pray God will have brought about a permanent change in me. I hope I truly become a different sort of person, one who can dwell fully in the present and relish it while resting my long term hopes and needs in God. Again and again in little ways that ultimately accumulate and amount to big ways, the Lord is offering me to live a life in which I rest the weighty things of this life in His hands and in so doing am freed up to more fully engage in and labor in the moment.